How can it be that I continue to go on without any of my lifelines I had. How is it that I am able to lay here thinking of them and still somehow carry on instead of being gone. I have believed that there is no possible way for me to keep going on without them here with me and without me being able to hold them and care for them. I feel numb most of the days but yet it gets me by and somehow I continue to survive this pain I have inside. I wish they were here with me so I could hold them tight. I would never let them go again if I had the chance to be with them.